Perasaan bercampur baur

Smalam hari yg panjang sy rasa. Ada beberapa event berlaku yg mana byk membuatkan sy berpikir kerasionalan nya. Ianya x senang utk difahami ttpi sy mencuba.

Smalam sy gi court. Judge kata xde yg bule menimbulkan keraguan. Kena kuliah sikit pasal jgn main2, ni xleh nak undur kalau dh terlajak with niat. Angguk je lah for both of us. Lepas tu bawa wife gi mydin usj beli baju raya utk sekeluarga. Rabak gak lah. 1st time beli baju melayu after so long. Can't remember when is the last me beli baju melayu.

Pastu gi bayar utang. Tawaf serata usj n shah alam. Nak renew sportage kena baya saman dulu. Ada 4 saman (RM660 ttl) byar 1 je dulu. Janji leh bawa balik kg. Pastu beli tiket bas utk anak sedara. Ada la balance sikit utk wat duit mkn, minyak etc. Alhamdullillah syukur.

Me chat ngan teman. How's life, work, asking few q's. Mmg ada probing q's. Me kinda lazer for the past few days. Tahlah.... Musykil y me like dis. Y me so care bout dia. Y me senang emo ngan ketidakgembiraan dia. Y me so nak tau apa perkembangan dia. Me xde jwpan. Me knows dat me lately irritate dia. Me jd emo. Me buat dia pissed with me. Me can't help it. Me really sorry for misbehave. Dia pun rasa pelik y me like dis.

Petang ada majlis berbuka ngan kengkawan kat Flamming (steamboat). Ada apai, umi, nahar, chah n me. Meriah but me rasa kehilangan. Terasa kosong. Me mmg berharap dia dpt dtg but unfortunately dia x dpt dtg. Mungkin dia dh kena booked ngan member dia or family la tuh. Dia jarang turn us down. Xpelah, nx time ada lg klu ada rezeki.

Byk la borak2 smbil mkn. Bercerita dan mengimbau kenangan. Me byk tersenyum n gelak. Sesekali menyampuk. Bercerita ttg posa, raya and so on n so forth. Hepi tgk dia org. Dlm hati rasa kurang meriah. is always be nx time kan?

Smalam mix emo. Tahlah... Rasa penat sgt. Me wish 2day is hari yg bahagia 4 all of us....

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