malam

malam ni byk mengajar on how to think. berpikir utk merancang apa yg perlu. tadi berjumpa kwn yg dah lama x lepak bersama. byk topik yg diborakkan. from work to friend to what are we looking and aiming in life. thanks to him.

also, tonight my mind more relax and stress free. byk yg dipikirkan and able to distinguish and classify from one topic to the other. need short term and long term plan which i don't have now. seriously i don't have backup plan if anything happen. yes, few things already happen which i'm not prepared at all. clueless, hopeless & helpless. rasa lost. so shitty and painful.

now, i need to classify or doing 5S (hymm suka guna hehe) in my mind. mana yg urgent, urgent & important, important and so on. is like sorting documents or spring cleaning haha. it will take sometimes to finish organizing and rearranging. xpe lah pelan-pelan dari x start langsung. GOD please help.

the best thing is, i'm able to smile bila tgk balik apa yg berlaku dalam hidup saya. x tau la apa jenis smile itu but i feel i'm more in control of myself. mekasih kengkawan kerana menyedarkan saya. samaada cara lembut, keras or whatever ways anda gunakan membuatkan saya sedar. i'm touched.

moral of the story (sorry Liza guna ur tagline without permission :D), open ur mind and soul to the others' opinion, thot, advice, example, experience etc for your guidelines. don't have to follow exactly but improvise to suit our life. thank you very much. tu yg termampu saya boleh cakap.