cinta

it is good to hv love in our live. rasa sayang dan disayangi work wonders. rasa ingin didampingi selalu saling berhubung sebagai pengikat kasih. sms, mms, tepon, ym, fb etc sebagai pengantara. bak kata zaki " cinta itu indah". seronok bila ada org care pasal kita. rasa x sabar nak meluahkan rasa rindu, rasa sayang :D

ada cinta hingga ke jinjang pelamin. ada cinta separuh jalan dan mati begitu saja. ada yang bermula sebagai kawan dan berakhir dgn cinta dan sebaliknya. ada yg menggunakan cinta utk mendapatkan sesuatu atau sebaliknya.

ada cinta yg beralih arah. ada yg cepat dan ada yg lambat. ada yg disengajakan dan ada yg tidak. ada berbagai alasan atau sebab diutarakan for justification. selalunya dengan adanya pihak ketiga atau perampas atau perosak kebahagiaan (alaaa dalam metro byk cite artis2 yg kata gitu hehe).

why it's happen? why change? why switch? is it bcoz dh boring? is it bcoz dh stagnant? is it bcoz xde excitement anymore? is it love dh ilang? is it bcoz xde persefahaman? is it bcoz utk kebaikan bersama? byk persoalan dihamburkan atau dipikirkan oleh org yg ditinggalkan (soklan std hehe).

mmg susah utk melepaskan seseorg itu pergi. terutama kalu dah bertahun kenal. kesedihan akan melanda. meroyan, menangis, merindu, merayu bla bla akan berlaku. nak sedih... sedih lah. nak nangis... nangislah. nak berbicara dgn teman? carilah teman yg memahami. yg bukan judgemental. yg sudi menjadi pendengar yg setia.

apa pun, kena wake up. collect back all the pieces left behind. gather back all the strength. bukan senang but hv to. kalau x sampai bila? kena recover by hook or by crook (yea ke eja?). doakan kebahagiaan, keredhaan, keceriaan etc kepada yg pergi. mungkin itu lebih baik dari kita. itu lebih afdal :D

satu quote "Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan walaupun mereka telah dikecewakan. Kepada mereka yang masih percaya, walaupun mereka telah dikhianati. Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai, walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan keyakinan untuk membangunkan kembali kepercayaan"

malam

malam ni byk mengajar on how to think. berpikir utk merancang apa yg perlu. tadi berjumpa kwn yg dah lama x lepak bersama. byk topik yg diborakkan. from work to friend to what are we looking and aiming in life. thanks to him.

also, tonight my mind more relax and stress free. byk yg dipikirkan and able to distinguish and classify from one topic to the other. need short term and long term plan which i don't have now. seriously i don't have backup plan if anything happen. yes, few things already happen which i'm not prepared at all. clueless, hopeless & helpless. rasa lost. so shitty and painful.

now, i need to classify or doing 5S (hymm suka guna hehe) in my mind. mana yg urgent, urgent & important, important and so on. is like sorting documents or spring cleaning haha. it will take sometimes to finish organizing and rearranging. xpe lah pelan-pelan dari x start langsung. GOD please help.

the best thing is, i'm able to smile bila tgk balik apa yg berlaku dalam hidup saya. x tau la apa jenis smile itu but i feel i'm more in control of myself. mekasih kengkawan kerana menyedarkan saya. samaada cara lembut, keras or whatever ways anda gunakan membuatkan saya sedar. i'm touched.

moral of the story (sorry Liza guna ur tagline without permission :D), open ur mind and soul to the others' opinion, thot, advice, example, experience etc for your guidelines. don't have to follow exactly but improvise to suit our life. thank you very much. tu yg termampu saya boleh cakap.

Things to do

so many things to do but the feel and willpower are not there. hope this is temp but already surpass few months. i know i need to change immediately but to change requires 1st step. i hate making the 1st step. maybe i'm still fonding to the old memories.

ahh memories...
for so many years i still feels like yesterday. still running thru my veins. bonding with my body and soul like one and unable to be separated. i wish things will be the same as before but things change. human evolve. hardware easily be obsolete but the software is expending over time. human need to cope and be adaptable to the new environment. saying is easy than doing. hahahaha...

Trial

my 1st trial of writing a blog. maybe can be an expression or just saying what i feel but i will saying what i hv in my mind. at least i can ease the burden hehe