Bukan setakat kata-kata

Cinta bukan mengajar kita lemah, tetapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan mengajar kita menghinakan diri, tetapi menghembuskan kegagahan. Cinta bukan melemahkan semangat, tetapi membangkitkan semangat. (Hamka)

Sememangnya cinta itu sering kali dikaitkan dengan keindahan, dan sering sahaja mengundang senyuman. Ada yang sanggup memperjuangkan cinta sehingga sanggup pula melepaskan yang dimiliki demi mengejar cinta.

Bukan salah cinta itu hadir dalam diri setiap manusia. Tetapi salah manusia yang tidak pandai, tidak cekap menguruskan perasaan cinta yang hadir.


Sekadar renungan.....

Mana mungkin rasa cinta ini, ku curahkan untuk insan yang telah lupa, Lupa pada cintanya pada pemilik cinta,

Mana mungkin rasa  cinta ini, ku serahkan kepada insan yang kedekut, Kedekut untuk mengucapkan ayat-ayat cintanya pada pemilik cinta,

Mana mungkin cinta ini, ku amanahkan buat seorang lelaki yang culas, Culas dalam melaksanakan amanah pemilik cinta,

Mana mungkin ku merasa bahagia, Jika aku menjulang-julang peminjam cinta, Tapi mengetepikan pemilik cinta.


Sekian....

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

I Want It That Way

Sinar.fm
7:25am

Cam magik. Bila lagu ni on air, terus nyanyi skali. Cam tau2 je. Music pun kenal padahal lama dh x dgr. Dulu pompuan gila kat the singers but I like the lyrics...

So here it is...


Backstreet Boys : I Want It That Way

Yeah, you are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why, I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire?
Your one desire
Yes I know, it's too late
But I want it that way

Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why, I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Now I can see that we've fallen apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance, I want you to know that
Deep down inside of me

You are my fire
The one desire
You are, you are
You are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say

Ain't nothin' but a heartache
(Yeah)
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
(Oh, yeah)
I want it that way

Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why, I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I want it that way

Tell me why, ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why, I never wanna hear you say
(Never wanna hear you say)
I want it that way
'Cause I want it that way

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Selamat menyambut Isra' Mikraj

Suatu kemusykilan

Why am I the unhappy one
I always try to run
Away from this
Depressing feeling

But everytime I turn around
It welcomes me back
With a smile
and open arms

Why must I be so annoyed
By so many little things
that shouldnt
even matter to me

Why must I love
What will only hurt me
And keep what damages me
To forever be
The hate I dont deserve
But always receive

Why must I befriend
Who promises to stay
But always leave
Quick, Fast, and in a hurry

With every blink
Of these bleak eyes
There never seems to be
Any chance at happiness

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Dear heart...

Dear heart,

I'm sorry for all the pain i put you through. I'm sorry for allowing others to break you and doing nothing about it. I'm sorry for allowing people to still have pieces of you even after we have stopped talking.

I hope you can forgive me for my actions. I can't guarantee that these things wont ever happen again but i can promise that i will be more cautious next time. I will listen to my mind instead of always listening to you.

Hopefully one day someone will come along and put your broken pieces back together. Thank you for being a trooper and hanging in there through all the bad times.


Sincerely yours,

Your mind

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Dying Inside To Hold You

Timmy Thomas : Dying Inside To Hold You

It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
Had a coffee and pie
When i turned to leave
I couldn't believe my eyes

Standing there i didn't know what to say
Without one touch
We stood there face to face

Chorus
And i was dying indside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you

You said hello then u asked my name
I didn't know if i should go all the way
Inside i felt my life have really changed
I knew that it would never be the same

Standing there i didn't know what to say
First time looked away when i whispered your name

And i was dying indside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you

And i was dying indside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you

One hello changed my life
I didn't believe in love at first sight
But you've shown me what is life
And I now i know my love (i know it's coming right)

And i was dying indside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Luahan rasa

12:45am
Balcony....

Sukar mengatur langkah
Sukar lagi menutur bicara
Terkadang pendirian ini goyah
Dihambat kenangan satu persatu

Sekerap mana janji dipateri
Sekerap jua ianya dimungkiri
Bukan mencontohi sikap yang dikeji
Tapi tabiat buruk memakan diri

Sakit dan luka sering diubati
Terlupa sejenak kisah disakiti
Disangka sembuh tanpa dibimbangi
Rupanya membukit dendam di hati

Andai duka disangka derita
Biarkan ia menjadi khabar gembira
Menyembuh hati yang telah terluka
Menjadi penawar tanpa diduga

Lupakanlah
Bangkitlah dari lena yang panjang
Sengketa yang sering bermusim itu
Noktahkan segalanya tanpa disesali

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Menegur vs ditegur

"Orang yang dapat menegur orang lain adalah orang yang sedia menerima teguran orang lain."

Teguran itu kebiasaannya bersifat membina, kerana apa yang tidak kita sedar kadang-kadang orang lain sudah sedar terlebih dahulu, persepsi kita lain, persepsi orang, lain.

Sebab itu apabila ditegur, jangan terlalu cepat melenting dan menolak teguran tersebut. Kalau begitu, kita adalah orang paling rugi, kerana berpeluang membina diri tetapi awal-awal lagi sudah merobohkannya.

"Orang biasa akan marah apabila dikritik oleh orang lain, manakala orang yang mulia ialah mereka yang memperbaiki diri daripada kritikan orang lain. Seharusnya begini lah resam kehidupan kita".

Manusia memerlukan 'cermin' bagi bagi meneliti diri. Orang disekeliling adalah cermin bagi kita.

Setiap orang yang menegur pasti sedia juga ditegur. Ramai yang tidak mampu lakukan ini. Hanya suka menegur tetapi tidak pula suka ditegur. Sebab itu penting apabila menegur isyaratkan terlebih dahulu, teguran itu adalah terlebih dahulu untuk diri sendiri.

Ingat! Apabila anda menuding jari terhadap kesilapan orang lain, sebenarnya 3 jari anda telah menuding kepada diri anda sendiri. Itu adatnya.

Sekian dari unnamed land....

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

What I remember

Every time I'm with you,
I feel like I'm in a different world.
A world where nobody can't come between us.
A world where its just you and me.
Where we don't have parents telling us that we can't be together.
Its a world full of happiness
Where we can be happy
A world where we don't have to hide.

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Is that what we want?

She is being controlled
Twisted, contorted, bent into someone else
A marionette of a soul.

The beast is controlling her
He attached the strings
And smeared a mask of happiness on her face.

He uses her, puts on a show for no one but himself.
She can't take it anymore, she has to break free
But she can't.
The beast is gripping the strings to tight.

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Stay Beautiful

Just received in my email. Quite meaningful.....


Stay Beautiful
Even if we don't stay friends
Stay Beautiful
Even if we fall apart
Stay Beautiful
Because you're going to be someone in life
Stay Beautiful
For me or if not for me
Stay Beautiful
For yourself or for the people you love
Just Stay Beautiful
Because someday you're going to find the one
You really truly love and she'll be telling you
To Stay Beautiful too
Stay Beautiful
Because you're an amazing person and
That'll never change and
Stay Beautiful
Because you're one and in a million and
Stay Beautiful
Just to stay the beautiful person
You are today and
Stay Beautiful
Because that's who you are
You're Beautiful

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

When a Man Loves a Woman

Michael Bolton : When a Man Loves a Woman

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothin' else
He'd trade the world
For the good thing he's found

If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
And turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
And trying to hold on to what he needs

He'd give up all his comforts
And sleep out in the rain
If she said that's the way, it ought to be

When a man loves a woman
I give you everything I've got
Trying to hold on to your precious love
And baby baby please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Deep down in his soul
She can bring him such misery

If she is playing him for a fool
He's the last one to know
Loving eyes can never see

Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
'Cause baby, baby

When a man loves a woman
When a man loves a woman
When a man loves a woman
When a man, when a man
When a man loves a woman

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Especially For You

Sinar.fm
22:11 mlm td

1988 song by Kyle Minogue & Jason Donovan (Especially For You). Form 4 time tu. Sesapa bercouple time tu asyik dok lyn lagu nih hehe


Especially for you
I wanna let you know what i was going through
All the time we were apart
I thought of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same

Especially for you

I wanna tell you i was feeling that way too
And if dreams were wings, you know
I would have flown to you
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that i'm next to you

[Refrain 1:]
No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
It's all because of you

[Chorus:]
And now we're back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you

Especially for you

I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me
How i'm certain that our love was meant to be
You changed my life .. oOh
You showed me the way
And now that i'm next to you

[Refrain 2:]
I've waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
Oh, and i wanna bring out all the love inside you, oh

[Chorus:]
And now we're back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
And now that i'm next to you

[Refrain 1:]
No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
It's all because of you

[Chorus:]
And now we're back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you

Together, together, I wanna show you ,
My heart is oh so true, and all the love i
Have is especially for you...

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Saya minta maaf... Part 2

Sambungan dari episod sebelumnya....


Dia masih berkeras hati? Penantian itu satu penyiksaan bukan? Maka janganlah ditunggu. Kelak memakan diri kerana terlalu lama menunggu. Biarkan dia. Lepaskan dan bebaskan perasaan resah yang membelenggu jiwamu. Biarkan ia terbang. Jangan ditunggu kepulangannya.

Maafkan dirimu. Dan maafkan dia kerana tidak melakukan apa yang kamu hajatkan. Itulah maaf yang sebenar-benarnya. Manusia kan makhluk yang sangat kompleks? Kita bukan Tuhan yang mampu membolak-balikkan hati mereka. Bahkan hati sendiri pun belum tentu!

Ambil masa beberapa minit dan muhasabah. Bermula daripada ibu, ayah, ahli keluarga, rakan-rakan, guru-guru, adik-adik, kakak-kakak, abang-abang, dan sesiapa sahaja yang pernah hadir dalam hidup kita walau sekejap cuma.

Yang di depan mahupun di belakang tempat duduk semasa sekolah dahulu. Yang dekat mahupun jauh terpisah beribu batu. Yang sama-sama berjuang dengan penat lelah dan jerih payah mahupun yang pernah mencaci dan menghina perjuangan itu.

Mereka tetap manusia seperti kita. Jangan memilih. Ungkapkan kata keramat itu pada mereka seikhlas hatimu. Walaupun pada mereka yang telah selalu diucapkan. Apatah lagi pada mereka yang pernah kamu lukakan hatinya. Juga pada mereka yang telah banyak mencurahkan kebaikan padamu. Kerana ungkapan maaf dan terima kasih yang lahir dari hati itu akan membahagiakan saudaramu. 


Sekian....

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Saya minta maaf

Tazkirah pagi Selasa dan sebuah renungan bersama....


Ungkapan itu mungkin terlalu berat untuk diluahkan. Tak tahulah ego tahap mana yang meraja dalam diri. Susah sangatkah mahu dibebaskan dari sangkar hatimu itu? Biarkan hati diketuk. Dengan akal sekali lagi. Moga jernih air yang keruh.

Jangan memilih siapa dia. Perlukah dimaafkan atau tidak. Manusia adalah sama. Cermin diri. Muhasabah. Sempurnakah kita? Daripada mengenang kesilapannya yang cuma satu atau dua, apa kata kita hargai kebaikan dia yang lebih dari itu? Barulah terasa kemanisannya.

Ya, memberi dan memohon maaf itu salah satu hak dalam bersaudara. Memang mudah kepada yang ingin. Kalau ego yang menguasai, memanglah payah.

Bukankah memaafkan itu bermakna kita berlapang dada dengan apa yang terjadi. Benarlah, berlapang dada itu yang paling asas sebenarnya dalam tingkatan silaturrahim. Kalau yang asas pun rapuh, bagaimana binaan tersebut mampu kukuh?

Tapi benar. Andai dia tidak mahu memaafkan, kitalah yang perlu mengambil langkah pertama. Ungkapkan kata keramat itu pada dia walaupun hatimu yang terluka. Leburkan egomu sendiri sebelum meleburkan ego yang lain! InsyaAllah sedikit sebanyak luka itu akan sembuh perlahan-lahan.

What you give, you get back. Itulah konsepnya. Moga-moga dengan sikapmu yang berhati mulia itu bisa melembutkan hatinya untuk meminta maaf kembali. Siapa tahu? Api tak mungkin dipadamkan dengan api bukan? Maka jadilah air. 


Sambungan... Kalau idea datang...

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Dear friend

1 of my training provider just inbox me with this poem kot. Letter pun cam yea gak. She says dat do read till the end and fwd to my friends. if possible to my dear friend.

So here I post the poem to those who has touch my heart and read my blog..... How are you?


dear friends,
how's your life?
it's been a while since I heard you laughed,
I, sometimes, dream of us so clearly,
in this making of 'memory'

our past days surely are beautiful,
the things keep our memory books so full.
the things we left unchanged are so many,
in this making of 'memory'

dear friends,
where have you been?
our day, our time,
do you still have that memory?
we live our lives now, differently.
we are, but for the making of another 'memory'

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Kesabaran

Patience is a virtue.
You'll need it to stay true.
Whenever you are feeling blue.
Faith and patience always pull you through.
Though at times it may seem bleak,
and hope is very weak.
Stay patient and you'll find what you now seek.
Love is patience which you really need.
Push too hard and good will leave.
The patient man will take the lead.
Rewarded well for virtuious seed.
With which he grew and paid his dues.
The impatient man will always lose.
So wait your turn,
ignore the burn.
With patience now you'll not be spurned.

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Secret

Something dark and hidden

Underneath the surface.

So long it has been kept

Locked and Hidden away.

What would happen

If it's revealed now?

These are our secrets,

These are our desires.

If anyone finds out

What would we do.

These are our secrets

Meant to be kept hidden,

Meant to never see the light of day.

We'll just keep them locked away.

These are our secrets,

These are our dreams.

Maybe even our desires

That never were meant to be there.

We all have them,

Just there.

No matter who we are.

Daughter, Son,

Wife, Husband,

Brother, Sister,

It doesn't really matter.

Everyone has their secrets

And that's the way it will always be

Together

Love is being together,
It is, being able to be together.
It is being together in work and play
In sorrows and in joy
It is sharing shoulders in tears
It is slapping hand in laughter.
It is being together in good times,
It is being able to remain together
When time is harsh and hard,
It is being there for each other
It is being there forever.
Love is all about
Being able to be together
And even in death to dwell
In each other's heart forever

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

Travel Log....

I went to Nepal for 3 days doing recruitment. Here I don't want to talk about recruitment process besides come, do interview, evaluate, accept, collect biodata bla bla haha...

All I want is to write on my travel log to Nepal. This was my 3rd time travel here.

So here it is.....

1st day

Time kinda back to the future. I've been here in 2006 & 2007. The surrounding change a lot but most of them remains the same.

The road still berdebu, honking all over the place, still no traffic light (traffic men yes!), full of Bajaj & hero honda, maruti suzuki but now kia n hyundai i10 & i20 are poking into the road. Saw kancil, kelisa, wira, naza bistari. Yamaha kinda slow here (still thinking of yamaha eh hehe).

Still remember this place. Full of memories. Wish I could turn back the clock. The casino (Tara Casino) still there (play few roulettes at nite hehe). Money @ chips gone down the drain haha ( I am not god of gambler). The shows are good ;) hehe. Full of bollywood wannabe....

On the 1st day was preety much nothing to do. More of sleeping at hotel (tired of using Nepal Airlines. What a smell inside). At nite invited to dinner by agent as wanna me get to know with local agents and met with people from Y&L Metal Components Sdn Bhd and Elektrisola who also came for interview (they going back on that night).

2nd day

After the interview process, agent prepared for me and his 2 staffs a half day trip to Pokhara. I heard this place is nice for scenery viewing but have no idea of the agenda.

Now waiting to board local flight (Yeti Airlines) to Pokhara. Fokker with 2 propeller engines (terasa naik private jet haha on Jetstream 41). The plane has 2 rows of seats and flight attendance gave us drinks and sweets. It's 25 mins flight and x sempat to tido haha..

Reached Pokhara and the adventure begins.....

1st pit stop is Devi's Fall. It is a miracle how water can design the earth.

2nd place is Gupteshwor Mahadev Cave Entrance Gate. It is the other way to see the bottom of the Devi's Fall. As usual there is a place where Buddhists do their praying inside the cave.

3rd visit is Bindabarsini Hindu Temple (Lady God Temple). X sah kalau x visit temple. Penduduk Nepal memang beragama buddha. Atas bukit. Lenguh kaki panjat.

4th stop is at Gurkha Museum. Memang super la mereka. Their soldiers dah establish since 18th century. Merata dunia dia org dah pegi and berbagai jenis perang. Memang patut royalty around the world guna khidmat mereka. They are very loyal to their master and famous for khukuri. Kat dalam kalu nak snap photo kena bayar la plak. Yea lah museum pun establish by org perseorangan. Amik gambar kat luar je lah.

Their Motto "it is better to die than to be a coward"

5th stop is just beside Gurkha museum called Seti River Gorge. The water is like air barli due to snow melting from everest mixing with minerals and very cold thou time tu kat Pokhara about 32C. Katanya, the water is good if you want to cure ur pimple blackheads etc...

Our 6th stop a.k.a lunch time is at Fish Tail Lodge. This place for me is very natural n peaceful place. Is good for relaxation and meditation and include hotels too. Many distinguished persons, vips, royalties stay there. Rates jgn tanya la. Every hotels in Nepal using USD. Sanggup bule la dok yg exclusive nye tempat around USD100 - USD150 per nite. Even to reach there must across the lake haha.

and my lunch is...... Fish Thakari

That's my last pit stop b4 we fly back to Kathmandu. Of course Pokhara is better than Kathmandu. Lagi bersih and tenang. Sebelum balik biasalah minum n shopping sikit2. beli key chains kat kekawan...

 

And not to forget our tourist guide for that day is Amit.

The very enjoyable short trip to Pokhara. Visit few places. Knows the area. Penat but gembira. Bought some keychains to friends and colleagues. Tu je yg mampu but oklah atleast from my heart. Hope can distributes to all persons that close to me.

Otw back to Hyatt, i saw peace rally. Katanya utk meminta gomen Nepal increase level of education. Tah lah. Kesian tgk bebudak beratur.....

Also bought present to my wife n myself for mother's and father's day. Mmg murah. USD45 each, yang mana saya tgk kat airport KLIA price RM280 rasanya.....

ada persamaan?

3rd day
Lepaking at hotel. Can't go anywhere. Rally at town. Hope tonight still I can board the plane. Last time stranded due to unstable political issues.

I think if political correct, the nepalese would much prosper as money keeps pooring in from people working abroad. But still, it change drastically from the time I was here. Probably now the ruler no longer control by the royals follow the bloodbath few years back.

Have no idea what to do today. Agent try to go to office to complete few things. As for me lepaking + watching tv la kot. Internet connections is astromical expensive. Wifi hotspot is everywhere but non of them foc like mesia. Even mamak give free wifi. Tp, boring nye pasal bayar gak la (Nepalese Rupee 1335.92 incl tax 23% about RM60 per day). Dpt la browse fb, twitter, goggle. Dptla ilang boring hehe

favorite car huhu

I got sms regarding east coast meets for MSL FA final. Klate lost to ganu 2-1 during extra. Me lost the betting but kudos to TRW player. They fought hard. Still have next year and still have opportunity to champs the MSL and yes, ganu again as contender. This year is for klate n ganu. Congrats also to ganu but red warriors is in my heart.

Last nite in kathmandu. Boarding on flight RA415 (seat no 6B). Dunno when gonna be here again. Well if not bcoz of taking nepalese, I'll not be here. Thks to agent haha or potential workers

Bon voyage from Nepal........